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{ ashley // SIHUI'
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as of o9/o9 :
39 days to POL-ITE!
171 days to graduation!
278 days to bePUREadult

Monday, August 13, 2007!

HandWritten on; 6:29 PM

mark a line across your commitments & your wants/desires.
what is or who is your commitments?
what are your wants or desires?
define them.

for the following context ; might be abit sexist.
pardon me.

heard lots of stories recently.
BGR.
felt like crying.
felt sad for the girls
what is BGR?
why is it making the people around me so emo now.?
and why do they have to plaster a smiling face infront of their guys.
and when the guys seems so ignorant.
they show care and concern for them yet what they get in return is some cold words.
WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE GUYS RECENTLY?
throwing temper as if they suffering from PMS.
ignored sms like they never recieved.
dont give a damn to ring up the girls.
controlling them with who they hanging out with and restricting them things to do.
i pity them.
hurt as if i am one of them.
fcuking hell!

i just got a string of vulgarities to yank it out;
but i cant. i know i just scold one
got so much things to say yet i cant.
bottled up and i felt so down.
really need someone to talk to.
):
label it stress.
label me nuts
label me emo.
label me a fool.
got nothing more to say.

just feel tht one day i gonna breakdown.
and no one will care.
not seekin attention here, but just need some space to voice out ~~not entirely.~~
i tried to bottle everything i know.
and pretend.
pretend
pretend
pretend
pretend
pretend
pretend.
pretend
pretend
pretend
pretend
is all i could do.

to avoid people get hurt
to avoid people get angry
to avoid their relation to drift

i want to say things out ;
but i am afriad of all these.
again, i am thinking bout people's feelings; care about theirs.
in the end, i suffered here in this room ; crying and no one knows.

#lostinherownwonderland.
wheneverythingseemsso~~fucked~~up.